111 - Marlene Kuntz

Si sposarono in estate

traversarono le contrade

fino ai peschi nel cortile

del podere padronale

Festeggiarono ad effetto

si schiantorono nel letto

poi in viaggio senza stile

sulle spiaggie del grecale

Lei lo amava in qualche modo

e la vita si assestava cos?..

Lui la amava pi?

che poco

e la vita proseguiva cos?..

Con rapidit?

volgare

presero a farsi del male

e un fanciullo assai vezzoso

venne a farne le molte spese

smisero di far l’amore

smisero anche di scopare

smisero di dormire insieme

e smisero di chiacchierare

Lui imbroglione di tenace infedelt?

alle bassezze la sua lenta deriva port?

Lei che lo attese con inquieta lealt?

dopo tre anni un amore nuovo si trov?

un amore nuovo…

Non?

stato difficile

raccontare questa storia

di ordinario fallimento coniugale

e non fu esattamente impossibile

accettare per me stesso

l’ipotesi dell’abiezione

in fondo pensavo dovr?

fare i conti

con una crescente contrizione

passando la vita a vergognarmi

per un talento giocato davvero molto male

ma quale errore quando mi accorsi

di averla uccisa a martellate

quale orrore quando mi accorsi

di averla punita massacrandola

a martellate.

quale orrore.

ma quale orrore!

che mostro sono.

e non so neanche farmi fuori da me!..

qualcuno ha voglia di pregare per me!?!

(Grazie a Francesco per questo testo)

They got married in the summer

they crossed the districts

up to the peach trees in the courtyard

of the manor farm

They celebrated to effect

they crashed in bed

then traveling without style

on the beaches of the Grecale

She loved him somehow

and life was settling down like this ...

He loved her more?

that little

and life went on like this ..

Quickly

vulgar

they began to hurt themselves

and a very charming boy

he came to pay the many expenses

they stopped making love

they also stopped fucking

they stopped sleeping together

and stopped chatting

Is he cheat of tenacious infidelity?

to the baseness its slow drift brought?

She who waited for him with restless loyalty?

after three years a new love was found?

a new love ...

Do not?

been difficult

tell this story

of ordinary marital failure

and it wasn't exactly impossible

accept for myself

the hypothesis of abjection

at the bottom I thought I should?

do the math

with growing contrition

spending my life ashamed

for a talent played very badly

but what a mistake when I noticed

of having killed her with a hammer

what a horror when I noticed

of having punished her by massacring her

hammered.

what horror.

but what horror!

what a monster I am.

and I don't even know how to get rid of myself! ..

someone wants to pray for me!?!

(Thanks to Francesco for this text)