Penance - Holding Absence

I watch the clock hands go by, time after time

I dream of leaving this place

If I could leave the past behind

Then I would just fade away, and cease to exist

Well, it would cleanse all my pain

It’s a shame that I ever lived

The devil on my shoulder, he whispers to me

And dribbles such a never-ending cacophony

Into my ear to blind the joy that tries to reach out to me

Such a dulcet suffering, why can’t anyone see?

Penance: a lesson in misery

You studied my rise as you watched my fall

I wrote my love in the cracks of the cracks of the wall

You’ll read that «Dying in vain, it was as good as it looked»

In a forget-me-not written in the spine of a book

I’ve wasted my time falling in love

With the thought of falling in love with someone

Am I killing time, or killing myself?

I think I’m killing myself sometimes, oh

Penance: a lesson in misery

Penance: a lesson in misery

You studied my rise as you watched my fall

I wrote my love in the cracks of the cracks of the wall

You’ll read that «Dying in vain, it was as good as it looked»

In a forget-me-not written in the spine of a book

Well, I could never grow trees

Still, I planted my seeds

Sadly, you will see, eternal sunshine won’t blossom me

I am enough to feel happiness and love

It’s hard to say out loud, «I deserve to be happy now»

Well, I deserve to be happy now

You, penance: a lesson in misery

Well, I deserve to be happy now