Mourning Song - Holding Absence

I was thinking of leaving

With the world placed firmly at my feet

Nothing left to gain

Nothing left to give you

If I could simply stop breathing

Maybe then the ache would go away

Nowhere left to run

Nothing left to run from

When you looked me in the eyes

How could I have known that that would be your final goodbye?

How is it fair I must live this life

Without your infinite light and guidance?

How is it fair you had no choice of when you left?

And now we all live in the shadow of it

In your slumber, you’ve shown me

All the little things that you’re deprived

Of every single thing that I took for granted

Now, I sit here in mourning

Knowing that you left while you were lost

And now I’m petrified

Of leaving before I belonged

My entire life is shrouded now

That death’s black wing eclipsed your sunshine

And if I have to live for you

In spite of all

The pain that I might feel that I go through

That’s something that I swear to do

How is it fair I must live this life

Without your infinite light and guidance?

How is it fair you had no choice of when you left?

And now we all live in the shadow of it

There is beauty in any loss that teaches you a lesson

All the beautiful friends we leave behind without ever forgetting

Though life will move without you, I will never move along

If this is my last chance to sing you to sleep

There is beauty in any loss that teaches you a lesson

All the beautiful friends we leave behind without ever forgetting

Though life will move without you, I will never move along

If this is my last chance to sing you to sleep

Then let this be my mourning song