Heaven Knows - Holding Absence

I’ll pray until my hands are red

I’m tired of enduring dread

I’ll pray to god that there’s even a god, but until then, heaven knows

I’ll pray until my knees are numb

Ashamed of all that I’ve become

I’ll pray that there’s a heaven at all

But until then, heaven knows

I write to you in my time of need

To grow a tree, and to plant a seed

Are different things entirely

I never found my «Place», you see

But everything you said to me, consoled me

I’m still alive in all I’ve touched

To everyone I’ve ever loved: Don’t look at me with regret

I hope you never forget that

Every mistake’s an ache, after all

You have to rise before you fall

I’m broken and I’m so tired

Everything you said to me, consoled me

I’m still alive in all I’ve touched

To everyone I’ve ever loved: Don’t look at me with regret

I hope you never forget that

Every mistake’s an ache, after all

You have to rise before you fall

Heaven knows, if there’s a heaven at all

If there’s a heaven at all… Heaven knows

Heaven knows