Twin Lakes - Rittz

I open my eyes up

There’s somebody sleepin' in the bed next to mine

But I don’t recognize them

Couple nurses comin' in the room to check on me

And maybe shed light

Tell me where I am

My legs are too long for this twin size bed

She said I need rest

Time to take my meds

It’s gonna be a long thirty days ahead

I went for my phone

But it’s gone

She said the staff searched everything I own

They confiscate my razor

My cologne

They made me sign a waiver

I can’t call home

So now I’m praying to the light on the fire alarm

Thinkin' to myself «Look what I’ve become»?

The tears on my face taste like alcohol

I’m crawled up in a ball

Fighting my withdrawals

I was starin' in the mirror

And the man I saw

Was appalled at the wrong I’ve done

And it’s never been as clear as it is right now

I was powerless all life long

I’m ready for recovery

Tryin' on to break these chains

Ready for recovery

Tryin' to escape Twin Lakes

It’s six AM

And I don’t got an appetite for breakfast

I can’t make friends

'Cause I don’t think that I know who I am yet

I flick my cigarette ash, I’m scared of talkin' group

A girl across the room is sayin' how she got abused

Younger kids are laughin' like it’s funny, I am not amused

I need to mind my business, that’s the type of attitude I’m trying to lose

Told my counselor, I think that I fell out of love of livin'

I drink Crown by the gallon jug, not an ounce of fuck is givin'

Buzzed without the fun, now I’m just a violent drunk

And If I don’t want to get sober, then it’s all over

I just hope my higher power shows forgiveness

Victim of this drug abusive life I live

Lose my mind and then another suicide attempt

So I turn my willing life over to you to drive again

I’m just hopin' I got time to undo the wrong I did

I was starin' in the mirror and the man I saw

Was appalled at the wrong I’ve done

And it’s never been as clear as it is right now

I was powerless all life long

I’m ready for recovery

Tryin' on to break these chains

Ready for recovery

Tryin' to escape Twin Lakes

It’s never too late