S.O.S. - Rittz

I don’t even know if I’m here anymore

Like my body’s here, but my spirit disappeared

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong (Please help me)

I wish that you could save me, but I may be far too gone

Put me out my misery

All my life

Put a crown on it, chug a bottle of Crown Royal and the grape juice Vodka

You know you hate life when you pray that you faint and remain unconscious

But you can’t get the job done

Put a shotgun barrel to your face, what caused this?

'Cause my thought has always been that way, since I was a kid, I always been a

fuck up

Eavesdropping on my parents tryna to discuss what they could do to me,

ass whoopings haven’t done much

Feel like God was a man with a giant ass dick, so I’m prayin' that I stop

gettin' butt fucked

But I’m sayin' something different out loud, really thinkin' he might punish me

for sayin' all this fucked up

Thought I would grow up one day and show up mom and dad, «Look, I’m not the

loser you knew»

Got a deal when I turned 32, but they still feel embarrassed for the music I do

How I talk, how I dress, how they thought my success would be gone in a second,

I’d screw it up, too

Wishin' they never would’ve said that shit (You're right)

'Cause everything they assumed is comin' true

There were times when I blew all the money and of course I can say,

there was more to be made

Makin' sure that I take care of my homeboys and my whole neighborhood from the

choices that they made

By now I should have like 400k in the bank, 'cause I’m free from my contract

But the money that I got didn’t cover my recovery, I’m about to fail a drug

test, fuck this

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong

I wish that you could save me, but I may be far too gone

Put me out my misery

Sick of suffering

Feel like everyone I love has had enough of me

Put me out my misery

Sick of suffering

I’m ashamed 'cause who I am ain’t who I wanna be

As a couple me and my lady layin' in covers, nothing excites us

We used to look forward to we go on gourmet foods, stick a fork in

Goin' to a shrink but he thinks I have been experimentin' on the drugs he

prescribed us

I ain’t feelin' great, disappear I may, feel like someone put a deep incision

in my brain, puttin' knives in my eye balls

get a eye shut, tryna move a ounce, fuck

I done got so lazy, I don’t bath, I just wipe up

I throw my phone, my zone vibrate, don’t wanna know how normal everyone is,

I’m not

Wanna hop inside a ride and find a cliff to drive off

My car probably flip and hit a palm tree

Will the fall paralyze me instead of dying?

I will be alive still, kinda luck I got

«What's up, you’re my guy, why you’re so unhappy?»

One, I see a mirror, hate the person lookin' at me

Two, I hate my life, it’s even worse than bein' addict

Three, I hold a grudge, I bet the Lord above is laughing

'Cause I made it rappin' after 20 years when nobody cares about your music and

I’m sick of postin' hashtags

'Cause they don’t like your album

You gotta talk to people, actin' like you’re happy when you wanna take a trash

bag

Put it on your head and hang a rope around a fixture

Still pissed at how my parents post no picture

In the living room beside my brother and my sister

Maybe they ashamed of me, knowin' that they kid suck

Each day is a bitch, just tryna stay sober

But nose gotta itch 'cause I sniffed drugs

people think tryna quit, I’d give my left nut just to get drunk

I should give up

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong

I wish that you could save me, but I may be far too gone

Put me out my misery

I’m sick of suffering

I feel like everyone I love has had enough of me

Put me out my misery

I’m sick of suffering

I’m ashamed 'cause who I am ain’t who I want to be, ah