Emily's First Communion - Old Gray

I watched the sun set in your eyes for the last time

I thought you died that night

You called me to tell me you wouldn’t survive

I heard the wind blowing through your hair

I would’ve given anything to be there

I could have sworn that I was

It’s not that I want to die

I just want to disappear

Do you think that I still dream of you?

Or long for the warmth that your body would provide?

Winter has never felt like it lasted for so long

But I’ve grown used to the cold

And I know that you see there’s no warmth where you are

(So I embrace the parts of myself that I long to change)

Is this the face that you were waiting to see?

(I embrace the parts that I hate because they remind me of when we were nearly

the same)

Find me where eyes are afraid to meet, where held hands can cripple fingers

That’s how strong our love could be, but I’m still so scared

I am so scared by the things I cannot see

Like the simple idea

I don’t keep you up at night

With a smile tickling of your mouth

Share my collapse

There’s enough weight here to bury us both

It’s just another dream, it’s just another dream

It’s just another dream, it’s just another dream

It’s just another dream