Swimming Lessons - Tiny Moving Parts, Old Gray

The hallway door slammed shut

The closet lights turned off

Another sleepless night to come

After I close my eyes

Count some sheep

Force myself to sleep

Again

Goodbye

I hope to see you tomorrow

Please promise to never leave

Never leave, me alone

1991, early morning, July

These blue skies has seen it’s better days

I’m left with endless stomachaches

Where do I belong?

I must belong elsewhere

Anywhere else but here

These four walls are our fault

These four walls are

Dive deep into the ocean

And listen to the waves calling out my name

But not today

I don’t care to swim

I don’t care, I won’t feel ashamed

I’m gonna die happy

The way I want it to be

The way I want it to feel

My anxiety, my anxiety

Will always, it will always destroy me

Do you feel comfortable in your own skin?

Am I worth every hard rotation of the clock?

I feel like I should ask myself these questions

I miss when I was a kid

I had feelings that I will never forget

Do you feel comfort in your own skin?

I’m not perfect, oh I’m not perfect

I’m not perfect

But I’m perfect enough