From the Palms - Bellows

In the yard, I see you smiling

Broad, some time ago

Odd, how long I lasted

Angry, full of hatred

In the snow, we looked so crazy

Wrecking balls, our every footstep crushing

And oh, I finally see you

Closer, broad, expanding

A white sheet, no more haunting

The wrestle, fist & palm

The cold

My home

From the palms, your broad arms

Open your hands

Open your…

In the yard, I see you smiling

So why am I so sad?

Sometimes in moments of quiet

I remember your face and I feel unhappy

How did I make it so hard to love me?

And why is it so hard?

Why is it so hard?

To care for you?

To love you