I Pushed the Button - Stephanie Mabey

I start out with blue prints and building blocks

I stack them up so high you can’t see the top

I calculate the best ways to make it fall

Before I swing the wrecking ball

I can’t help but break it down

I’ve got a heart that’s full of mushroom clouds

When it’s self-destructive

Like I’m wired to delete

Anything that might be good for me

Til I’m left with nothing

Cause I pushed the button

I count to three

Then watch the whole thing collapse

Oh I can’t wait to start again from scratch

But every time I get to the final piece

Oh I start disassembling

I can’t help but break it down

I’ve got a heart that’s full of mushroom clouds

When it’s self-destructive

Like I’m wired to delete

Anything that might be good for me

Til I’m left with nothing

Cause I pushed the button

But soon I’ll find the way

To build up something beautiful that stays

Cause deep down I know

That I detach the moment that

I throw the switch

Alight the match

Cause I can’t help but break it down

I’ve got a heart that’s full of mushroom clouds

When it’s self-destructive

Like I’m wired to delete

Anything that might be good for me

Til I’m left with nothing

Cause I pushed the button

This could be the last time that I undo

The standing bridge that’s taking me straight to you