Heart-Shaped Hologram - Stephanie Mabey

I lie awake when I’m alone

And I picture us

I dance with your mirage

Oh, I keep forgetting

You’re somewhere else with someone real

You’re laughing in their arms

While I’m in the dark

I don’t know why

I keep you in this heart-shaped hologram

Oh, I take you everywhere I am

It almost seems like you’re with me

Even though a heart-shaped hologram

Could never love me back or hold my hand

I still don’t know how to let you go

I miss the way it used to feel

When you reach for me

Was that just make-believe?

Oh, I keep forgetting

I close my eyes, and you appear

Like you’re my favorite dream

This can’t be good for me

I don’t know why

I keep you in this heart-shaped hologram

Oh, I take you everywhere I am

It almost seems like you’re with me

Even though a heart-shaped hologram

Could never love me back or hold my hand

I still don’t know how to let you go

I say I don’t need anybody

I keep you with me like a ghost

But what if I’m just terrified

I might not even know

What to do with someone who

Could love me back for real

I keep you in a heart-shaped hologram

I take you everywhere I am

It almost seems like you’re with me

Even though a heart-shaped hologram

Could never love me back or hold my hand

I still don’t know how to let you go