O'zing - Шохрух

Olamda o’zgarish bor, lekin qalbimda bir hol

Yurakda bir fasl qish, har bir ishda malol

Azali yo’q hamda ohiri ko’rinmas yo’l, lim zulmu zavol

Istak sari hayotimning tarkibidagi, dardu g’am bilan

Arang qo’zg’alaman manzillaringa

Yarim qalb o’ksigan ko’ngil bilan intilaman visolinga

Ko’zlarimning teranligida o’zga sayora

Unutdim qay zamon qaysi vaqt

Harakatim soddai rasvo bo’lish davogarligida

Bilaman ki na bir taht na bir baht bor maning uchun o’zingsiz

Yozdim man kuydim ham yuz parchaga bo’lindim

Butun umr izlaganim uchun ham, nimani ko’rsam ham uni o’zing deb bildim

Har vaqti sahar uchrashgani tayyor turaman

Beor bedor va beozor so’zlagin aniq muntazirman

Man o’zim deb emas, o’zingni deb yashayman

Har vaqti sahar ko’zdan oqqan tomchilarimni sanab kaftimga tavbalarimni chorlab

Oqaman suv kabi behol, bir qarab kuydiradigan zar nazaringni tilab

Hayollarimdan o’tadi ming hil sodir bo’lishi mumkin bo’lgan hodisa

Qalam yozar kunduzu oqshomimdagi nolalarimni, maning misoli qalandar

Hayotim dunyoning orzu havaslaridan holi bo’lgan bir g’amgin asar

Negadir eshtilmaysan, bemor holimni so’ragani keldi hamma

Faqat o’zing kelmading holimni so’rab, nega?

Vaqt o’tar ketar, ko’zlarim bedorligi bo’yi tonglarim otar

So’zimda bugunda faqat g’amginlik, bo’sini borida borida negizi cheksiz

mamnunlik

Talpinaman yorib ko’pdan ko’pi kamida jami son sanog’i yo’q to’siqlarni

Topaman deb surdim qo’llarim bilan bulutlarni, topdim faqat yulduzlarni

Undan ortig’i emas, mayli gardanimga ilinsin olamlar og’irligi

Man ahir roziman jamoling bo’sin evaz, esim pas emas

Faqat yolg’izlikdan ba’zi tomim ketar, nari borsa holim battar

Iltimos qilaman qo’lim tinmay yozgan hatlarimga to’htamay chorlaganimga

Or qilmay so’ragan so’rog’imga, rasvoligimdan o’tib nazar sol, nazar sol

There is a change in the world, but in my heart there is one

A season of winter in the heart, tired of everything

There is no end, no end, no end, no end

Desire is part of my life, with pain and sorrow

I can barely move to your address

With a half-hearted heart, I long for visol

An alien in the depths of my eyes

I forgot what time it was

My action is a simple disgrace claim

I know there is no throne or fortune for me without you

I wrote, I burned, I split into a hundred pieces

I've been searching all my life, and I've come to know that everything I see is yours

I am always ready to meet in the morning

I'm really looking forward to it

I live for myself, not for myself

Each morning, I counted the tears that flowed from my eyes and called for my repentance

Wishing you a dazzling dice look as weak as running water

A thousand things can happen to me

He writes my pen during the day and my moans in the evening

My life is a sad work, devoid of the dreams of the world

For some reason you can't hear, everyone came to ask about my condition

Why didn't you just come and ask me how I was?

As time goes on, my eyes light up in the morning

And let me tell you - it was a scary place

satisfaction

I've been trying to break through countless obstacles for a long time, at least the total number

I tried to find the clouds with my hands, I found only the stars

Not more than that, let the weight of the worlds be on my neck

I agree, I don't care

It's just that I'm lonely and I feel bad

Please keep calling me for my letters

Look at my shameless question, look at my shame, look at me