The First Time - Reverie

First time I saw you, you was hopping over a fence

That was before I knew your name & before we 'came friends

The week of finals, I was stretching for P. E

You started banging on the cholos in my class, caused a scene

Threw up the set you claimed, security came- chasing you off of the campus

I knew you was a GEE cuz when you dipped they’s talking mad shit

Class continued, semester ended

I saw you walking down my block & we began our friendship

«Wassup, I’m Mimes.»

«Yo, I’m Reverie, I heard that you was deadly

Got chased out of Franklin carrying a machete!

Are you crazy?»

He laughed, explained.

If I had half a brain

I would have walked away, but something told me to stay

We conversed for hours- literally

Avenue 66, San Pascual, up & down every street

The sun was setting, «Gotta go,» «Can I get your number?»

«Naw.

It was nice talking to ya, but I’ll see ya later.»

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…

Walking with Coke to Hi Ho for soda & hot cheetos

Seems like I’m running into you every place that we go

She knows you’re crazy.

I know that maybe

I got a crush on you, been thinking about you lately

Gave you my number but I said, «We're still just friends

So don’t get it twisted.»

It was so simple back then

You started showing up after school just to walk me to the bus

Everybody would be dogging us but we didn’t give a fuck

Packing bowls, telling stories, with you it was never boring

Chemistry like that- it should have came with a warning

Take me out to eat, rolling in the Back Streets

Never fucked, never kissed, not even on the cheek

I was too scary, very insecure & unsure

I loved our friendship so much & wanted to keep it pure

I thought we was cool but then you stopped coming around

Fuck it.

I guess he just wanted to fuck, I see it now

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…

Found out he got busted, sent to camp for the first time !

Wrote him a kite, couldn’t get him off of my mind

Letters every week turned to letters everyday

Haven’t seen the dude in months but I got so much to say

Everybody like, «Who you always writing letters to?»

«To my best friend, homegirl, you should write him too!»

«It seems like you like him cuz your eyes looking helpless

With each letter that comes I could see your heart is melting.»

«Girl, you trippen.»

«Rev, you know I’m right

I know you on that 'fuck love' shit but I see it in your eyes

Why you holding back?»

«Well the thing is he’s in jail

& we never even kissed, we’re just friends, can’t you tell?»

«If you really like him girl, you gotta let him know

& when he gets out, ain’t no rush, you know you can take it slow.»

«But I value him so much as a friend, I don’t wanna lose him

It’s all good, I know exactly what I’m doing.»

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…

One day I came home to a letter from you

Told me you loved me with all your heart.

What to do?

Cuz I felt it too, everyday it’s growing stronger

You said that you loved me from the first day & can’t hide it any longer

I ponder, I think, I reminisce

Back then it was so innocent cuz we were just kids

Years passed & we still keep in touch

So I gotta give a shout out to my first love

Purely platonic, it ain’t nothing sexual

But I still think about it, just thought I should let you know

I wish you the best, happiness & peace of mind

So keep your head up homie & don’t forget to smile

Remember back then?

Remember when you said

«In the end I pray that if you ain’t my lover, you’re my friend.»

Remember back then?

Remember when you said

«In the end I pray that if you ain’t my lover, you’re my friend.»

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…

If I knew then what I know now I would have held you tighter…