Lost (Sloth) - R-MEAN

I ask people for directions but nobody ever told

When to stop, when to move, what to say, where to go

Man I’m lost

Lost in my thoughts and my soul

I was put out on this journey but got lost on the road

I ask people for directions but nobody ever told

When to stop, when to move, what to say, where to go

Man It’s dark

Dark like my heart when it broke

I was put out on this journey but got lost on the road

State of depression

I’m blazing tryna tame my aggression

My spirit is dead, I’m at the wake like I’m paying respect I’m

Tryna be patient

Am i waiting or just wasting my seconds?

Got all these dots, but got no way to connect em

I wish I erase my reflection

Feel like the fifth wheel on a car that’s headed to nowhere

Somebody navigate my direction

Blank staring into space with no facial expression

'Til I attack a blank page with a faithful confession

Angels in heaven know my church is the streets

The mic booth is my confession booth, the world is my priest

And so I’m begging you to turn when I speak

And just listen as I’m attempting to unburden my grief

Try to accept the truth, it hurts so I seek

For excuses, fuck I’m a loser

Cause dude I’m stuck in illusions

Takes years to build trust for the future

But only suspicion, not even proof to destroy it

But who can avoid it

Brick walls all around me

Get taller from the ground

As I cement my thoughts

Feel it tumble down like a deck of cards

They say only the dead see the end of wars

I’m still fighting, am I close to the end at all?

With zero visibility

Desperately tryna turn this chaos into tranquility

Feel like a tank drilling me

Tryna withdraw from a blank memory bank, silly me

I set my feelings free

Like a bird from a cage, I don’t think I dream

Separate the mind from the heart like a guillotine

And though I try still I feel I’m falling short

Dear Lord, show me the way or forgive me if I get lost

I ask people for directions but nobody ever told

When to stop, when to move, what to say, where to go

Man I’m lost

Lost in my thoughts and my soul

I was put out on this journey but got lost on the road

I ask people for directions but nobody ever told

When to stop, when to move, what to say, where to go

Man It’s dark

Dark like my heart when it broke

I was put out on this journey but got lost on the road

State of confusion

I’m racing try escaping from Judas

I’m slain with contusions on my face, no erasing these bruises

Internal bleeding, feel my pain, i ain’t making excuses

But my mind is running wild like its being chased by intruders

Different races influenced

I pray to Christ, but I strive to blow like a Muslim so I grind till my paper

Jewish

The way to explain it to you is

Kinda like shawty shaving her pubics

Devil’s in disguise of an angel that’s prudent

Mistakenly blaming the student as I learn from my mistakes

So i urge to use the brakes

The racing is useless

No silver spoons, I’m at a fork in the road

This knife that you calling life’s in my soul

I got enough on my plate

I might panic

As I hit rock bottom like Titanic

Feeling restless like my Sabbath

I cry drastic

Why lie, the rhyme’s candid

Till I die and i lie in my casket

But I try to bypass it, been through it

With anchors attached to my ankles tryna swim through it

Why did I jump on Noah’s Arc when it rained

I should have stayed and let the fucking flood wash me away

A tough face, but in my heart I’m afraid

My heart’s filling up with fear like sinking boat just fills up with water,

I pray

And I feel I’m sinking

Sinking to the bottom as I’m shrinking

Shrinking to a toddler or an infant

God has been so distant

Ironic, cause the smaller i feel, the closer He gets

It goes against my instincts

And tho I try, still I feel like this is sloth

Dear Lord, show me the way or forgive me if I get lost

I ask people for directions but nobody ever told

When to stop, when to move, what to say, where to go

Man I’m lost

Lost in my thoughts and my soul

I was put out on this journey but got lost on the road

I ask people for directions but nobody ever told

When to stop, when to move, what to say, where to go

Man It’s dark

Dark like my heart when it broke

I was put out on this journey but got lost on the road

It’s just a written reflection of my inner expression

Taking my soul into another dimension

Its Pentagon