Anxiety - Problematic

I lay in bed and I start to overthink

I’m tryna clear my mind but it seems I’m on the brink

Of losing all I got cause my illness kicking in

I’m hoping for the best but can’t ever seem to win

You ever get the feeling that nobody ever cares?

You ever sit and wonder what’s your purpose to be here?

As I stare at my reflection I don’t like what I’ve become

I’m at war inside my head all this hurt has got me numb

I worry way too much now my heart is racing fast

I can’t seem to concentrate always stressing to the max

My palms are looking sweaty I pretend that I’m okay

Then I walk outside the door fake a smile and turn away

My body gets the shakes I’m confused and unaware

Do they love me do they hate me?

I’ve been living in my fear

Change can be so scary when your past is traumatized

You can tell I lack expression I’m a demon in disguise

You can’t understand the pain deep inside of me

What its like tryna deal with this anxiety

And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off

Another panic attack I’m about to relapse

You can’t understand the pain deep inside of me

What its like tryna deal with this anxiety

And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off

Another panic attack I’m about to relapse

I’m nervous for my future I do not feel inspired

My life is like a movie that I’ve seen too many times

Lock myself inside my room cause I need my space alone

I’m constantly reminded in the end I’m on my own

Each day I’m getting weaker you can tell that I am tense

My last break up was hard we just could not make amends

I’m blaming my depression and I blame everyone else

I can make nobody happy with this self inflicted doubt

And lately I don’t know how much more of it I can take

I wanting to collapse but I’m destined to be great

They tell me I should chill but don’t ever wanna wait

Are you anxious?

Are you sad?

Are you wanting to escape?

Ive been at rock bottom now I’m tryna reach the surface

Anxiety anxiety its got me feeling worthless

I take a deep breath but ill never be alright

So I’m turning to the music cause legit it saved my life

You can’t understand the pain deep inside of me

What its like tryna deal with this anxiety

And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off

Another panic attack I’m about to relapse

You can’t understand the pain deep inside of me

What its like tryna deal with this anxiety

And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off

Another panic attack I’m about to relapse