I Used to Hate Myself - Moth Wings

I’ve got something that’ll make you mad

I’m over all the times we had

I’m over you always complaining about your dad and I’m fine

I’ve got something that’ll piss you off

I stopped avoiding your house on walks

I don’t look for your face in every coffee shop and I’m fine

If you asked me if I missed you I’d say never in a million years

I’m probably wrong, I miss you still

If you asked me if I’m doing well I’d let you know that it’s more than I could

hope

I’m at war with myself

I used to hate myself

I guess I kind of still do

And I spent half the time just blaming all my problems on you

So I got comfortable

It’s all I could do

And I got closer than ever to working out the way I should get to you

If you asked me if I missed you I’d say never in a million years

I’m probably wrong, I miss you still

If you asked me if I’m doing well I’d let you know that it’s more than I could

hope

I’m at war with myself

I used to hate myself

I guess I kind of still do

And I regret all of the time I spent wasting all the love I had on you

I want it back now

It’s the right thing to do

But if I see you in the future I won’t ask for it or even leave a clue