Unloveable - Lucidity

Shit is hard, so I don’t wanna begin again

Can’t explain it, what I’m feelin', so I play pretend

I’ma be the same forever, watch it go again

This is how it end

Lately I’ve been sleepin' in

Shit is hard, so I don’t wanna begin again

Can’t explain it, what I’m feelin', so I play pretend

I’ma be the same forever, watch it go again

This is how it end

Now I been alone

Killin' every motherfuckin' hoe that’s on my phone

Tryna drop 'em, bein' cold, but it’s all a low

Get to know me, you be runnin', but I get it though

I’m Unloveable (yeah)

Been this way for a couple of days

That what I tell 'em, if I’m honest they be thinkin' that I’m strange

If I let 'em know it’s years, stuck and on the same page

If I let 'em know it’s tears, never sun, only rain

I’m obsessin' on my last ones, thinkin' bout cuttin'

I’m thinkin' that I be nothin', I’m thinkin' bout poppin' somethin'

I’m thinkin' 'bout on the summit, I’m thinkin' 'bout I be jumpin'

I’m thinkin' 'bout all the people who watchin', all of 'em judgin'

I’m always thinking, never stops, up and down like it’s stocks

And if you bettin', it’s a loss, like you been gettin' robbed

I’m lookin' up at my idols, decided I’ll never be one

Why am I such an outsider?

Just fuckin' give me a reason

Just fuckin' help me, these demons, they always eat me alive

And everytime that she leavin' she never told me goodbye

She left me scared of myself, don’t think that she meant it well

I wish I told her how I’m feelin', that I’m goin' through hell (yeah)

Wanna change, but this shit is too late

I wanna tell ya' that I love ya', but still you thinkin' I’m fake

But now I find myself runnin', just so I can get away

So I can go and be shut in and waste away all my days

Lately I’ve been sleepin' in

Shit is hard, so I don’t wanna begin again

Can’t explain it, what I’m feelin', so I play pretend

I’ma be the same forever, watch it go again

This is how it end

Now I been alone

Killin' every motherfuckin' hoe that’s on my phone

Tryna drop 'em, bein' cold, but it’s all a low

Get to know me, you be runnin', but I get it though

I’m Unloveable (yeah)

Wish I was different, but I keep on with this mask

Lotta' shit I should’ve said, but now I’m caught up on my past

I don’t got a lot of friends, but I got a lotta' cash

I’m not thinkin' bout the end, I don’t wanna get attached (damn)

I’m disconnected — I don’t got the time for me

Every day I learn a lesson 'bout the man that I should be

But I never can address it, even though it set me free

So I go down this direction, and I’m droppin' what I need

Pick the pleasure every time, and I’ll admit it that I’m weak

You can measure me inside, and maybe then you’d really see

That I’m twisted and broken, this shit is hopeless for me

And while you pickin' up smokin', I’m tryin' hard just to breathe (yuh)