Carelessly - Lontalius

I am only as good as my ideas

I am holding you back from your tears

I am hoping you’ll be here for years

I am hoping you’ll hold me for years

Self care is a waste on me

Though it’s not that I live carelessly

All that I’ve ever wanted

Falls short to crawl in this boy’s apartment

On the regular, I’ve lied

By the reservoir, I’ve cried

For that night

I am only as good as my ideas

I am holding you back from your tears

I am hoping you’ll be here for years

I am hoping you’ll hold me for years

All I wanna do is

Live alone without losing touch with

Something regular in my life

By the reservoir, I cried

For a better time, late nights

Restless, dressed, but I’m alright

I know I’m alive

I think self doubt will be the death of me

Could I be alone?

For the record, I’m nervous but I’m not afraid

For the record, I loved it through all misery

For the record, I never thought I wouldn’t change

For the record, I loved you and all that you gave me

My life could be simple

Follow me back to my room

Carelessly I am

Wide awake thinking about all I have

I don’t want you to think

That I don’t wonder

Could I be alone?

Should I be alone?