TRAUMA - Josh A

I got traumas that I run from

Can’t let go of all the pain

And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I’ll be fine

I want someone to care, tell me that I’m alright

But I’m breaking

Hard to deal with what I’m facing

And you know my heart’s been racing

Got too many pills I’m taking, taking

Inside, yeah, I keep it inside

I bottle emotions and swallow my pride

I’m just fillin' the void with money, cars, and drugs

And the women I love, they’re just usin' me up, like

It’s hard to be sane when everybody wanna try me

Friends switch up, now I know they never liked me

Been too many times that I’m fallin' out the deep end

Lonely vibes 'cause I’m fallin' out of sequence

I’m runnin' too fast, but I don’t know why

Even with this cash, I can’t get by

Everybody talk, they don’t know my life

But I still try

I got traumas that I run from

Can’t let go of all the pain

And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I’ll be fine

I want someone to care, tell me that I’m alright

But I’m breaking

Hard to deal with what I’m facing

And you know my heart’s been racing

Got too many pills I’m taking, taking

I carry on, but it’s so exhausting

Dead friends and family on me

Barely living, I feel like a zombie

I feel invisible, nobody wants me

I ruined everything and I know it’s all my fault

How can I change when I got these obstacles?

It’s all in my brain, I got depression in my skull

Just wanna escape, but it feels impossible

Runnin' too fast, but I don’t know why

Even with this cash, I can’t get by

Everybody talk, they don’t know my life

But I still try

I got trauma that I run from

Can’t let go of all the pain

And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I’ll be fine

I want someone to care, tell me that I’m alright

But I’m breaking

Hard to deal with what I’m facing

And you know my heart’s been racing

Got too many pills I’m taking, taking