ADDICTION - Josh A

And I don’t even know how I got this far

Don’t even bother tryna save me

I don’t like the drugs, but the drugs like me

Everything I want, but I’m still dying

Even when I’m down, know I’m still trying

I’m not really living, I’m just surviving

I’ve been lookin' for my purpose again

And I’m barely hangin' on by a thread

It’s been gettin' too hard to pretend

I just wanna let go of my sins

Callin' out for help, but I don’t got no one to talk to

Try to be a better man, but it always falls through

I’m feelin' like a disappointment, I’m hearin' voices

I’ve been on the edge again

And you know it’s hard to be myself sometimes when I only want what’s worse for

me

And I hate when I became, now I’m so stressed out

Tried to medicate to push these thoughts out

All alone, I don’t wanna need these pills to function

I supply my own destruction

I wish life came with instructions

Maybe then I’d finally change

I don’t like the drugs, but the drugs like me

Everything I want, but I’m still dying

Even when I’m down, know I’m still trying

I’m not really living, I’m just surviving

I’ve been lookin' for my purpose again

And I’m barely hangin' on by a thread

It’s been gettin' too hard to pretend

I just wanna let go of my sins

Withdrawals, they go on and on

It’s been so long, but I’m hangin' on

And I’ve been lettin' the ones down that love me

I just push 'em away

'Cause I don’t even know myself or who I am

These days embrace pain to try and feel something

And I don’t even know how I got this far

Don’t even bother tryna save me

All alone, I don’t wanna need these pills to function

I supply my own destruction

I wish life came with instructions

Maybe then I’d finally change

I don’t like the drugs, but the drugs like me

Everything I want, but I’m still dying

Even when I’m down, know I’m still trying

I’m not really living, I’m just surviving

I’ve been lookin' for my purpose again

And I’m barely hangin' on by a thread

It’s been gettin' too hard to pretend

I just wanna let go of my sins