For The Better - John Anthony

I’ve had too much here to drink

That I can barely just think

I’m trying to stay here afloat but I’m fucking scared that I’ll sink

I’m drinking just by the hour and looking back at our pics

Drunk as a bitch

Blacking out with a fucking bottle of whisk

Questioning how in the fuck did this get as bad as it is?

All I remember was the summer at the beach with our trip

Then two months later I get filed for harassment and shit

Now I’m in court, three year ban, it feels like man, is this it?

‘Cause I didn’t expect this shit to get all bad in some ways

From that PFA to the fucking judge won’t give me no say

To being falsely accused of abusing her in a way

How could I touch her if I loved her?

You all think I’m insane

But shit, you barely know the facts but I’m just trying to convince

‘Cause people hate me to death over things that I never did

But if I violate the papers ‘cause of this music and shit

Then fuck it, I’ll go to jail

But I won’t fail to know that it’s just for the better

(Hook)

It’s just for the better

There never was a forever

You need to learn to forget her

‘Cause you’ve been driving your self crazy

It’s never

Gonna be the same when you meant her

But you can’t be an upsetter

‘Cause you are driving your self crazy

Flashback to twenty fifteen

That was the year that we meet

Some socially awkward kid seem to met the girl of dreams

It was so hard to believe

Took you to semi that week

Still can’t remember if that dress you wore was a blue or a green

Of course we would disagree

We were just both young in our teens

Then Christmas Eve came around and fights would end us complete

I fucked up more than it seemed

But shit, I didn’t care if you leave

‘Till you was with someone else, I get so mad I would freak

Those fucking three months you was with him was way too hard to just see

You would just walk right in school and not even bother with me

I guess that’s how it would be

You was as spiteful as me

But that’s what made me love you the most ‘cause I saw you in me

You see, it’s hard to look back and know exactly what you need

Shit, were we meant to be?

At the time man, that’s how it would seemed

How did I fuck up this up this dream?

I should’ve blamed it on me

I guess I was just irresponsible to see

But I guess it’s for the better

(Hook)

It’s for the better

There never was a forever

You need to learn to forget her

‘Cause you’ve been driving your self crazy

It’s never

Gonna be the same when you meant her

But you can’t be an upsetter

‘Cause you are driving your self crazy

I’ve broke unbearable lengths

Took down that terrible fence

When do I pair up the strength to get up and do this again?

I’ve been so fair in the end

But their no comparable trend

I take my bare knuckles and left a fucking tear on my head

How could I do this again?

Now we are not even friends

I take the blame for half of it but you the reason I’ve been

So fucking pissed off

If I list off every goddamn thing that you did

I wouldn’t have songs to just vent

Probably have no career to begin

But look

As long as your happy I don’t have any reason to be mad

I just got to find some way to get all this anger and hate off my back

So whether it’s this song or Abuser or any future songs I rap

Just know that it’s all for the fact

Of getting this shit off my ass

Few days ago I stumbled back on some letters that we would write in high school

I thought that was gone in the shredder

Man, those were simpler times

I miss those days in November but now it’s over

I must move on and remember that it’s only for the better

(Hook)

It’s for the better

There never was a forever

You need to learn to forget her

‘Cause you’ve been driving your self crazy

It’s never

Gonna be the same when you meant her

But you can’t be an upsetter

‘Cause you are driving your self crazy