Meant To Be - John Anthony

Yeah

To my life, I hope to see you next year

Yeah

I’m thankin' all of my enemies

I hope you know that y’all set the villain free

So I will never fall on my legacy

This is really all that it’s meant to be

I built up this wall and it’s killin' me

Now I let it fall to it’s misery

I’ll be standin' tall on my own two feet

This is really all that’s it’s meant to be

Yeah

I went from twisted, no cap, to literally just twistin' a cap

'Cause I feel this bottle’s in fact, the only friend that I did have

When I stacked so much on my back

It’s tragic but sad as it sounds, it’s all that I had

Lookin' back, I was kinda glad that I had it

'Cause if I hadn’t, I probably would’a saw my end, it was possible

Either that or my ass would’a been dragged up to a mental hospital

God for bid, I was not myself, irresponsible monster, no one was stoppin' though

Causing so much drama, shit wasn’t plausible

But I feel like my conscience started quittin' on me, it’s unfair

Why the fuck is no one talkin' to me, hello, is anyone up there

Can’t bare to think that I have to make my own decisions

Feel like I’m superstitious, can’t even stoop to this shit

But this is, not where I thought I’d be sittin' at up at this age

By now I thought I be rockin' stages but man, have my plans changed

Just wanted my hand raised so I can be victorious

But I guess it seems I’m more of the loser, I’m not no warrior

I’m thankin' all of my enemies

I hope you know that y’all set the villain free

So I will never fall on my legacy

This is really all that it’s meant to be

I built up this wall and it’s killin' me

Now I let it fall to it’s misery

I’ll be standin' tall on my own two feet

This is really all that’s it’s meant to be

I dreamed of being a superstar at just such a young age

I think that it fucked up my brain, leavin' me permanent pain

Wish I could say fuck with this, get up and just walk away

Act like I never even took a fuckin' foot in this game

Man, what I would do to go back in time and just change my behavior

Hang with my friends and for fuck sake, be a normal teenager

Instead of hidin' inside and writin', I’m losin' my mind

All that I ever seem to see is yellow paper with lines

Feel like I complain about this shit way too much and yeah, I get it

You probably think if I hate this shit so much, why not just let it go and

forget it

It’s not that I wanna hate it at times

I love hip hop to death but someday’s it’s ruinin' my life

Ever since eleven, my career has just been flat lined, I guess

With this new decade, I’m afraid that it could just happen again

And I just can’t do another ten and get no where up with this

I can’t even wait another year, if I’ll be honest so shit, is this it

I’m thankin' all of my enemies

I hope you know that y’all set the villain free

So I will never fall on my legacy

This is really all that it’s meant to be

I built up this wall and it’s killin' me

Now I let it fall to it’s misery

I’ll be standin' tall on my own two feet

This is really all that’s it’s meant to be

Yeah, somedays I visit my older shit and I think to myself

How fuckin' stupid I sounded, rappin' like I’d get a deal, that’s how I feel

I cringe up when I hear Therapy still

And I wrote that when I was depressed and it still hasn’t helped

After this I’ll be leavin' peacefully, decency’s all I needed

I dreamed of seein' so many people just freely believe in me

But seemingly, that’s not how it would be so I’m cleanin' my sins

So Jesus can lead me away from this evil that be in me, thanking

I’m thankin' all of my enemies

I hope you know that y’all set the villain free

So I will never fall on my legacy

This is really all that it’s meant to be

I built up this wall and it’s killin' me

Now I let it fall to it’s misery

I’ll be standin' tall on my own two feet

This is really all that’s it’s meant to be

So whatever man

It’s a love, hate relationship I guess

The one thing I can say about hip hop is

Hip hop’s never left my side

And for that I’m never gonna leave it’s side

I’m gonna die in this game probably

Just comes down to whether I make it or not so, until then

I’ll see ya around