Not Even Myself - Horse Head

I can’t picture my own face with a smile

And it’s been like this for a while

When the time comes to make a choice

I can not hear the options

It’s hard to hear them over the sound of your own voice

So cross my heart

And slit my wrists

I don’t think that love exists

And I can’t trust no one

Not even myself

So black my eyes

Tell me lies

Couldn’t believe them if I tried

I can’t trust nobody

Not even my own body

Not a day goes by where I don’t miss you

I just hate myself, I’d never diss you

And I don’t think I can take you back

No, I would not dare risk that

Cause losing you is just like losing part of myself

When the time comes to make a choice

I can not hear the options

It’s hard to hear them over the sound of your own voice

So cross my heart

And slit my wrists

I don’t think that love exists

And I can’t trust no one

Not even myself

So black my eyes

Tell me lies

Couldn’t believe them if I tried

I can’t trust nobody

Not even my own body