stuck in memories - Hamilton

Ever since you left me, my brain has been against me

Wish I could erase all of the memories

If I left the world tonight, would you even miss me?

Imma turn up missing

Imma go M.I.A, Imma turn up missing

Dissapear from everything, now I’m really distant

Born into this system, my brain is like a prison

Wish I could escape it, the darkness in my vision

The demons in my orbit, they take all my light source

Nothing left to fight for, I cry until my eyes sore

Smoke until I’m so high, don’t feel like a life form

Egodeath the 3rd time, died again I’m reborn

They tell me be happy, just be glad it happened

My brain is fucking cracking from chemical reactions

I know that I’m fucked up the chemicals imbalanced

Probably from the acid, I feel like I’m alice

It feel like a science experiment in my mind

Take myself far away and leave it all behind

Tell Imma make it, but I know I’m wasting time

Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

Ohh

It feel like a science experiment in my mind

Take myself far away and leave it all behind

Tell Imma make it, but I know I’m wasting time

Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

Take a ticket wait in line

Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

Take a ticket wait in line

Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

It feel like a science experiment in my mind

Take myself far away and leave it all behind

Tell Imma make it, but I know I’m wasting time

Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

I feel like I’m useless more than fucking ever

Ask me when I’m happy, probably fucking never

I don’t wanna feel the pain, but I’m stuck in memories

Remember all the awful things you would fucking say to me

Damaged me emotionally, socially, and physically

Left all alone to rot in my own misery

Now I’m just a husk of who I once was

Laying on my bed I know I am not enough

Drown in my tears, and drown in the smoke

My life is a nightmare, I hope I overdose

I love to get numb, I can’t fucking help it

Mama I’m sorry, I know that I’m selfish

Selfish, mama I’m sorry, I know that I’m selfish

Also I’m useless, and helpless, my dreams are all fading

I’m living my life with a deathwish