shadow - guardin

Calling for the last time

Caught a glimpse of it

Through shifting eyes

I see them looking at me

From right outside of my window

I see the monsters that creep

They lurk when I’m sparkin' my indo

Holdin' the smoke till I choke

I won’t breathe till it exit my airways

Copin' by I’m hopin' tomorrow is better

I dwell in the stairway

Fuck it, I just wanna drive

I love the feeling of feelin' alive

Do you ever contemplate suicide?

Falling asleep on his shoulder while I

Cry in my pillow alone in my bed

Smother the sound of the voice in my head

Losin' my voice so I speak with a pen

Writing agendas so I can pay rent

This is my life

This is not shit you can cut with a knife

No tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds I’ve been breakin' and

smokin' all night

Why do I write all about me?

Why can’t you see all the things that I see?

Am I alive, is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?

Get out alive or just live in a dream

Sorry I suck, I’m full of shit, I do not give a fuck

I got disorders and folders inside of me, tucked

Undiagnosed but I know I am fucked

Up in my head, writin' about it again and again

It’s gettin' harder to write songs about flowers

When showers are cold and my phone’s always dead

I think that I am fine

When I’m alone in my

Bed with my bong packed tight

My throat’s been sore all night

Sip that water quick

Before you might get sick

Tacks and thorns will prick

My words will never stick

My words will never stick

My words will never stick

My words will never stick