I Deserve This - Caskey

I’m feelin' so many things inside

I deserve this

This money bring tears to my eye

I deserve this

If you knew what I’ve been through

You would understood what it took

All these stones that they throwin' at me

When they should just pray, but it’s still all good, I deserve this

I’ve been goin' through so much, I reversed it

Who knew that I would make it this far?

I rehearsed this

And them diamonds don’t mean shit to me

I just wear 'em all as a reminder

Nobody upliftin' me

Fuck it, I’m a sole survivor

And I would trad it all, just to see my pops one more time

And to roll on with you 'cause I miss you so much

People see the fame

But the shame is it don’t feel the same when it’s all said and done

That pain been callin'

I look in the mirror and I feel this scarrin'

Feel so unwanted

With myself, I’m warrin'

I’m feelin' so many things inside

I deserve this

This money bring tears to my eye

I deserve this

If you knew what I’ve been through

You would understood what it took

All these stones that they throwin' at me

When they should just pray, but it’s still all good, I deserve this

I deserve this

I deserve the shine, so fuck what it cost

I deserve the lights, the life of a boss

Did this by myself, no one I could call

So once I get it all, ain’t no it up

I’ve been through mournin' through losses and setbacks and trollin'

People talk shit and they don’t even know me

It weigh so much that I can’t feel the moment

And all I lost all of my homies

And I would trade it all, just to see my pops one more time

And to roll one with you 'cause I miss you so much

I’ve been so close to the edge

That I want to be dead and I’m tempted to jump

People only see the outside

Don’t know what it took

So before you look at my life and think it’s all good

I’m feelin' so many things inside

I deserve this

This money bring tears to my eyes

I deserve this

If you knew what I’ve been through

You would understood what it took

All these stones that they throwin' at me

When they should just pray, but it’s still all good, I deserve this

I deserve this

I deserve this