Is It Only Me? - Beverley Craven

It’s just a fantasy

I don’t really mean the things I’m thinking

They just come to me

Like a dare

That I can’t share

In case you think that I’m not all there

I’ve got to keep my karma clean

'Cos everything comes back to me

It must be insecurity that keeps me weak

Or gives me the edge I’m looking for

Is it only me?

When I’m doing things I keep a tally

Safety in numbers and in my routine

Like OCD

I’m convinced someone’s watching me

I want to be alone so much

And yet I long to stay in touch

A melody is stuck in my head

And it won’t go

And now I forget what I came here for

If I say it

I’m gonna jinx it

If I keep it close

It’ll grow

Can you blame me for keeping secrets?

Why, oh why, do I just get so over-emotional?

They should take me away

I’m all over-emotional

Is it only me?

If I think it

You never thought it

When I hate being who I am

Little phrases become symbolic

And my normality is such a sham

They should take me away

I’m all over-emotional

Is it only me?