Front Row - Alanis Morissette

(I know he’s blood but you can still turn him away

you don’t owe him anything)

do you go to the dungeon

to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon

writing a letter to you

didn’t make me feel any more peaceful than how I felt when we weren’t

speaking

because I didn’t cop to what I did.

I can’t love you becaused we’re supposed to have professional

boundaries.

I’d like you to be schooled and in awe as though you were kissed by god full on the lips.

I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn

I get to see you see you close up

(I'm too tired to recount the unpleasantries one by one

one minute I want to banish you

the next I want to be on a deserted island with you with my three

favorite cd’s

ambivalent in your bed we’ve yet to acknowledge what really happened)

Slid into the ditch I have this overwhelming loss of amibition

we said let’s name thirty good reasons why we shouldn’t be together

I started by saying things like you smoke you live in new jersey

(too far)

you started saying things like you belong to the world

all of which could have been easily refuted

but the conversation was hypothetical

I am totally short of breath for you

why can’t you shut your stuff off…

I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn

I get to see you see you close up and I laughed until my lungs hurt

I love how you bust my chops

You don’t always feel seen

Sometimes you feel erasable unfortunately I cannot reciprocate in my current state

I think we should be careful of how much time we spend together

…for a while while i’m speaking

you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some time

alone

fill up your proverbial cup so that it doesn’t always about you

I’ve been wanting your undivided attention I like the fact that you’re

nothing like me Are you not burdened by the lack of perspective people have of your

charmed life (seemingly)?

I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn

I get to see you see you close up you never meant to be ungrateful

nor held up to be whipped or wept

for certainly not analysed

prodded at more ways than one apparently you’ve been misrepresented

dealing with the concept of arrows being slung towards your outrageous

fortune

Hey I’m not mad at you guardian

I’m mad at myself for spending so much time with you and your jeckyl

and hydeness

i’m glad i firguratively slapped you on the wrist

you laughed a wicked laugh and said come here let me clip your

wings!

(I know he’s blood but you can still turn him away you don’t own him

anything)

raise the roof he yelled yeah raise the roof!

I yelled back.

(Unfortunately you needed a health scare to reprioritize.)

No thanks to the soap box

Having my rile against them won’t make an ounce of difference…

I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn

I get to see you see you close up Oh the things I’ve done for you

many a sitch a friend a man’s been left for you

oh the books i’ve read for you

the tongues i’ve bitten for you many a new city for you

for you many a risk taken for you (not a single regret)