I Was Hoping - Alanis Morissette

As we were talking outside, it was cold

We were shivering, yet warmed by the subject matter

«My wife is in the next room

We’ve been having troubles, you know

Please, don’t tell her or anyone, but I need to talk to somebody»

You said, «Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes before

I died?

I’d be filled with such regret before I took my last breath»

And I said, «You're willing to tell me this now, and you’re not gonna to die

any time soon»

And I said, «I haven’t been eating chicken or meat or anything»

And you said, «Yes, but you’ve been wearing leather», and laughed and said,

«We're at the top of the food chain, and yes, you’re still a fine woman»

I cringed

I was hoping, I was hoping we could heal each other

I was hoping, I was hoping we could be raw together

We left the restaurant where the head waiter, in his 60s, said «Goodbye, sir

Thank you for your business, sir

You’re successful and established, sir

And we like the frequency with which you dine here, sir… and your money»

And when I walked by, they said, «Thank you too, dear»

I was all pigtails and cords, and there was a day when I would’ve said

something like, «Hey, dude, I could buy and sell this place, so kiss it»

I too once thought I was owed something

I was hoping, I was hoping we could challenge each other

I was hoping, I was hoping we could crack each other up

I too thought that, when proved wrong, I lost somehow

And I too once thought life was cruel, and it’s a cycle, really

You think I’m withdrawing and guilt-tripping you

I think you’re insensitive, and I don’t feel heard

And I said, «Do you believe we are fundamentally judgmental, fundamentally evil?

«, and you said, «Yes»

I said, «I don’t believe in revenge, in right or wrong, good or bad»

You said, «Well, what about that man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency

room, bleeding after beating his kid, and she threw a shoe at his head?

I think what he did was wrong and I would’ve had a hard time feeling

compassion for him»

I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged

I was hoping, I was hoping we could dance together

I was hoping, I was hoping we could be creamy together