(un)knowing - Young Jesus

Knowing’s led to what I know

It comes and then it goes

Unknowing’s what I’ve grown

Arguments aside

It’s just a life

Dusk gives way to night

Then holds the light

Felt a pain and let it last

Let it grow with goodness and

Future, present, future, past

By the fields of cloud and bone

Calcified, laid out like a home

Phantom limb, phantom cornerstone

Watch the way it shakes

This knowing mind

Do you build with higher stakes?

Or let it lie?

Felt a pain and let it last

Let it grow with goodness and

Future, present, future, past

The slower motions of decay

This human speed accelerates

I dream of breathing, broken things

I wake up on the verge of hearing

Fields of clouds and angels ringing bells

And stretching out their wings

Oh, give me all your perfect things

Your weightlessness and pure belief

Oh God and Mary, Jesus Christ

Won’t bless me for my every vice

I’ll be redeemed in shame and grief

In knowing I may not find peace

I rub my eyes and hear my partner’s breath

Forget these lonely depths

Forget the perfect and performed

Just listen to this love unknown