Lost in My Thoughts - Young Al

With all of this pressure, I better go diamond

Look over deception, I’m done with all the lyin'

19 years old with these grown man problems

But I’m still too young to figure out how to solve em'

Guess I’m not as smart as I really thought I was

But I’m conscious enough, to never fall in love

I’m not destined for a life filled with rainbows and doves

I’m just comin' from the bottom tryna reach up above

Climbin' and crawlin', stretching to the top

Never with a harness so I’m dead if I flop

And some new obstacles, always seem to pop

Meltin' like a Popsicle, the gravel gets too hot

Tryna make it through the storm, but I can’t grip a slippery rock

A blizzard coming in and I’m not well prepared

But the coldness of this world is something I must bare

And if you ask me should you do it, I’d say you shouldn’t dare

Just stick to your box and be handled with care

But for me I’ve used my token, no refund on the fair

I’ve set it all in motion so it wouldn’t be fair

To smoke on something potent, And head back to the lair

I’m in this lonely world and I’ve never been more scared

I love all my brothers but loyalty is rare

So I’d kill them and the king just to be the next heir

As I keep climbin' higher I lose sight and gasp for air

The trail repeats patternwise

Hit with an epiphany, as I start to analyze

Came to the conclusion that I’ll always want more

From working for a quarter raise to the keys of an Aventador

From having my own bed to lay to designing my own mansion door

Texting girls who just have me wait to fuckin' the bitch I adore

Rappin' on the streets of da bay

To sellin' out my worldwide tour

Always tryna chase that pay so I’m never really ever bored

I looked at mama in her face and told her we will not die poor

(Uh) And as these days keep getting longer

I’m out huntin' for success

Tryna feed my hunger

No more off days I’m waking up from my slumber

From negative to positive tryna reach increase the numbers

Yeah, I’m the next up and comer

Lost in my thoughts as I spark the blunt and wonder

You took a break from school, I worked harder in the summer (uh)

They say you should be happy with just being alive

But really what kind of life are you livin'

When you just tryna survive

Get the feelin' that all they tell you are lies

Out the buildin' cause they tell me I haven’t kept with the billin'

Then they wonder why my brothers keep on dealin'

Some quick easy money man it’s hard to fight the feelin'

I’m just tryna show my parents that they didn’t fail their children

Cause no matter what, shit we’ll always get our meal in

Wonderin' how life would be, if we lived it differently

Dreamin' bout how mama’d be

If we never lost the house, if we really had a home

I told her to be patient now and wait until I’m really grown

Always rented never bought now she says she wants a trailer

But we ain’t in a movie told her save that shit for later

Done it all my life it ain’t nothin' new to downgrade

It’s hard to come up when your mom works as a housemaid

Dad askin' me for money didn’t keep much when he got paid

Guess I’ll wait another week for me to get that bald fade (shit)

'Cause family is first I’m just tryna use a few words

That can turn into a verse, make a milli off my thoughts

And really just flip the curse, that’s casted on my family

Make the debt go reverse, Uh, and make the debt go reverse

(Uh) And as these days keep getting longer

I’m out huntin' for success

Tryna feed my hunger

No more off days I’m waking up from my slumber

From negative to positive tryna reach increase the numbers

Yeah, I’m the next up and comer

Lost in my thoughts as I spark the blunt and wonder

You took a break from school, I worked harder in the summer

(Uh) And as these days keep getting longer

I’m out huntin' for success

Tryna feed my hunger

No more off days I’m waking up from my slumber

From negative to positive tryna reach increase the numbers

Yeah, I’m the next up and comer

Lost in my thoughts as I spark the blunt and wonder

You took a break from school, I worked harder in the summer

(I worked harder in the summer)