[Un]Alive - XIII

I choose to stay inside you

I never thought this isolation could feel so cold

I would never lie to you

I’m just so sick of the cycle

God it’s getting old

I choose abuse not to lose you

Cut me a heart all across my nerves

Beat me down and make me bleed

Fuck me till I lose my need

Whatever I get’s more than I deserve

Everything used to be so harmless

Now everybody tries to be so heartless

What in the world did I do to deserve

To only feel alive when I’m fucked and hurt

I’m not alive

I’ll never be alright

I’m writhing from the inside

No lie

This is no kind of life

Cross my heart and hope I’ll die

I choose to feed your smile

I guess that I’m just better off here as your toy

So go ahead and play

As I clean this mess you made

Play in the soil of my stolen joy

Everything used to be so harmless

Now everybody tries to be so heartless

What in the world did I do to deserve

To only feel the pain of the scars that burn

I’m not alive

I’ll never be alright

I’m writhing from the inside

No lie

This is no kind of life

Cross my heart and hope I’ll remain

Fuck all this hatred and the bullshit that it comes with

Fuck this anger that controls me from within

If I could have this any other way I’d fucking change it without a second to

waste

I said fuck this place

I’m not alive

I won’t be alright

Cuz I’m not alive

And no, it’s not alright

(It never was alright)

I’m dying on the inside

No lie

This is no kind of life

Cross my heart and hope I’ll die

I’m just living a lie