D.N.D. - Xenial

I’m in a strange place

Thought I was done with this shit

But since the girl is on my brain

Guess I still got bones to pick

It’s been a year since we talked

Or had a whole conversation

As we was texting back and forth I thought of future plans basing

Everything off what we had

Now all that is lost

At the end you chose him

I wondered what was the cost

Bragging to everyone about you

At the time strings were pulled

Now this instrument been broken since that day now I’m through

So tell me why

Yo why the fuck were you cheating

Why you leave my heart beat, broke, cut up here and bleeding

What the fuck were you up to when I was gone on the weekend

What the fuck happened to loyalty that we were both seeking so

I’ve been lost lately…

Cause I never had a queen that was worthy of my time daily

So I draw back to the pad

Cause I’m done with all of this conversating

Done with all of this time wasting

Done with the hurt and the pain and the stress that I had with all of this dumb

dating

Claiming that you only love me for me

Knowing damn well you would never wanna see

Me, winning on a headline

You with another guy taking a whole other seed

Damn

Guess that we’ll never be

Goals you wanted so I’m missing threes

Deliberately so I could never see that a relationship’s been hurting me

So really I just say fuck it

I ain’t know that I been blind the whole time

You blew everything we had like trumpets

So really ima just cut back to the back line

Cause you the reason that I lost trust

You the reason that I lost faith

You the reason I would pick up a pen with these tears that I dread and bled on

the page

You the reason that I had hope

You the reason that I count days

But now every moment we had now has passed and I don’t think I can find another

way

To get you out of my head

Now I’m dreading these thoughts

Cause demons talking wanting me dead

To think I let the flood gates open

Told you everything about my life

Told you everything I wouldn’t even tell my parents on the coldest nights

But guess you was just a lesson

I never paid attention in class

But you taught me a new session

To not give everybody that I come in contact with direction

Keep my book closed

Keep thoughts on hold

Like calls that I was never getting

But fuck it

Things change and people change and when it rains we all feel the pain

But it’s shifting me to a different plain

So I ain’t gon' really sweat it

Honestly I just dead it

Dead the calls dead the texts and dead the things I was stressing

I thought you was my angel

I thought you was my blessing

And honestly I just dead you

You won’t hear this but I hope that you get the message