Like Locusts - Withered

I lay in filth*

My thougths decay

I wish I could turn off my mind

Flip of a switch

Eternal

All goes black

No more angst

No more sadness

No more confusion

No more anger

No more pain

No more love

Only black

Only peace

How long must I go before I realize that this is not for me?

That I;m slowly dying, rotting from the inside

Lying in the dark

Muffled sounds sound

So distant in this silence

Explode in my ears

They invade me

They envelope me

Like locusts suffocating me

The current

Too strong

Growing tired and weary maelstrom

Its embrace

Is pulling me under

We succumb to its violence

Never knowing when that time will come

I’ve fought it far too long

Now it’s time to let myself go

Now it’s time

Achieving peace

Now it’s time

Let go

Of the guilt

Now it’s time

Stop my beating heart