If I Die - Willis

I been tryna find a place where happiness lasts

This shit done happened so fast, I can’t keep up with the raps

They say ya home where you’ll never be sad

But I barely go to see my mom and hardly speak to my dad

‘Cause after the eviction I’ve really been feeling different

Alcohol at home behind me and addiction in my vision

I’m listenin to Mobb and Illmatic it is my medicine

Music become my sedative when life become repetitive

Elevated and celebrated but not my melanin

But middle class cat and frat rap, I never been

Grassroots hip hop culture comin out of me

I been around the block and college avenue can vouch for me

But at the moment I’ve slowly grown to be broken

Rap allow the words without the courage to be spoken

All I wanna do is be honest and feel better

Window pane (pain) arrange claim to the wether

Fuck a hater, a gang, I ain’t afraid of whoever

I ain’t bout to be a bitch but know I can’t deliver

I can do something with music and use it as therapy

Reach out to the people who have never been aware of me

I can see my path as I walk but homie just barely

And if I’ll never be happy then this shit it just ain’t fair to me

I hope the people I love can see my vision

But honestly it’s alright if they don’t I know I’m different

I know I’m a weirdo.

slapped in the head

I’ve never liked doing drugs, so never had many friends

Cause nowadays a friend is just a narcotic supplier

Only thing these kids are worried bout is getting higher

Take away the Xan pills and shit out the equation

Do you still got real friends or is that to many changes?

I’m only saying this cause I been getting bored

No one wants get to know you and people don’t wanna talk no more

But that’s alright cause I got Logic Pro 1

And a microphone that listens, it might be my only friend

So I sit alone at night in my room and truly ponder

The meaning of my life and now my mind begins to wander

What am I doing if I’m not making a change?

Where am I going if I’m not going insane?

Where can I be free if I always rock a chain?

And where can I be happy when I’m feeling this pain?

Lucid dreams, lucid dreams, please come tonight

Maybe in a fantasy world I can do something right

Lay my head, man I know should sleep

I been feelin weak all week.

I need some peace

I’ll just go to sleep.

And have a good dream

And never wake.

sometimes I think that’s how it should be

So if I die before this song gets released.

Just know that I was a dreamer and needed peace

So if I die tonight.

If I die tonight.

Will you remember me?

Will you be alright?

If I die tonight.

If I die tonight.

If I die before this song gets released.

Just know that I was a dreamer and needed peace

Hold on.

At the moment I feel alone

But I know that I’ll be fine.

If I find time to free my mind

Visualizin' the realism of life in actuality Fuck who’s the baddest,

a person’s status depends on salary And my mentality is money-orientated

I’m destined to live the dream for all my peeps who never made it

‘Cause yeah, we were beginners in the hood as Five Percenters But somethin'

must’ve got in us, ‘cause all of us turned to sinners

Now some restin' in peace and some are sittin' in San Quentin

Others, such as myself, are tryin' to carry on tradition

Hold on.

At the moment I feel alone

But I know that I’ll be fine.

If I find time to free my mind