This Blackest Purse - WHY?

I’m not who, with my eyes from stage

I claim to be

I’ve only cradled death in my own ending

Flesh from far off and abstracted lit

Candle wick flickering

And when a thing starts finishing around me

I faint or fake a mustache, an accent, or flee

In fear my expired license be pulled by sheer proximity

Fact: the poseur in the bowler gets shot first

Thinks he’s the shit 'cause he can spit and curse

Acting brash and flashing a pistol that squirts

Scowling, and shouting, «Shall we dance?»

Should our hero’s hands be holding this blackest purse?

Mom, am I failing, or worse?

Mom, am I failing?

(Mom, am I failing?)

What should these earnest hands be holding?

Still sporting my ex-girlfriend's dead ex-boyfriend's boxers

I want to operate from a base of hunger

No longer be ashamed and hide my

Tears in shower water, while I lather for pleasure

I want to speak at an intimate decibel

With the precision of an infinite decimal

To listen up and send back a true echo

Of something forever felt but never heard

I want that sharpened steel of truth in every word

The small fry in the bow-tie dies first

Acting wild, like the spirit of god moving after church

Faking he’s hard like he’s packed down dirt

Already, and yelling, «Be my guest!»

Should our hero’s hands be holding this blackest purse?

Mom, am I failing or worse?

Mom, am I failing?

(Mom, am I failing?)

What should these earnest hands be holding?

Should our hero’s hands be holding this blackest purse?

Mom, am I failing or worse?

Mom, am I failing?

(Mom, am I failing?)

What should these earnest hands be holding?