A Natural - Whipping Boy

Today is not a good day for me

For today I found out I was mad

As I have discovered this in the last 45 minutes

My madness is still new

Fresh in my mind so to say

So I can understand it more

It has come to my attention that over the past year and a half

I have acquired a condition known as acute paranoid schizophrenia

In relation to everyone and everything I did

It gradually worsened

Through the year to this point of realisation

That I have a twin mind

And in the intervening time I consumed with a passion various things to keep

the main side happy

And as the main side grew hungrier quicker

And if it wasn’t fed each time

It began to eat the other

Distrust of everything, it ran in the family

At least on my mothers side

There was too much trust in the other

I am its eldest offspring and I too have distrust too much

That’s why I don’t want children

Each person has their own tragedy

Mine as I found out, was this fear of my old lady turning into the very same

old lady that I despised when I grew up

But you fall in love

And is it possible to fall in love with Every woman you meet?

You just stand there with your mouth

Open thinking wishing I never existed

But this is my time and the girl I just met should be here

'Cause here was a woman

Who held me and did not copy my every move

She just let it happen

Never asked

But I answered

For I myself am heaven and hell

Today is not a day for me

Today is not for me

Today is not a day for me

Today is not for me

Today is not a day for me

Today is not for me

Is not for me