Forgiveness - Verb T, Illinformed, Smellington Piff

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Particles and dust of old worlds sit along me

Surrounded by all of one’s was and what got me

Spitting out the poison in my mouth, I watched it twist around

And hit the ground, I’m tryna to figure out if I fit the crown

The deep depression, keeping it in check

Shaking out the stress, anger, hatred, and the disrespect

What’s the price I pay for worrying my life away

Time and time again, thoughts emerge like a tidal wave

Kind of strange, self destruction on my mind again

I remain searching in the clouds for the higher planes

Forgive me please, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful

There’s a lot of love from friends and I appreciate you

I’ve been very lucky, but I also ram myself into the ground

Moving ‘round without resting and losing out

I feel stupid now, I hold my hands open

A man broken, but far from hopeless

I hold my hands out, please forgive me

I feel like a strange energy is with me

In a way, this is absurd to feel

You can call it self-righteousness versus guilt

I hold my hands out, please forgive me

I feel like a strange energy is with me

In a way, this is absurd to feel

Looking for the right path and I’m searching still

between wanting to be Harvey Dent and Clark Kent

I swear I keep a self-destruct button at arm’s length

It’s like I’m dealing with a thirst that I can’t quench

I’m playing snakes and ladders with a cat and a sharp fence

I’m looking at the situation that I’m in

With countless little pricks praying that I pack it in

Never will I sack it off and give ‘em all the satisfaction

Everyday’s a battle with myself that I have to win

Handling the pressure, dealing with the nonsense

Feeling like Stan living with a guilty conscience

We all find it hard to admit when we done wrong

For instance, with business tryna figure out where money’s gone

And a wise man forgives but he don’t forget

‘Cause otherwise he’ll be living with a load of regrets

Yo we should all try swallowing our pride

Now telling ourselves tomorrow’s gonna be fine

Still searching, tryna find forgiveness

Even though I know I’m never wrong in my business

Righteous, yet I’m a walking contradiction

Talking to the devil then my head with the prediction

If I never felt pain, I’ll think that everything was fiction

Nothing here’s real, everyone’s a famed fake

Where you get stabbed in the back with a painstake

Just for name sake, these situations give me brain ache

I play the game with a plain face

And enough tricks up my sleeve to save grace, remember

A good friend’s worth two in the end

You only repent to relapse and do it again

Make a mistake and learn, or face your fate and burn

Wait to take your turn, or chase and bait the worm

It’s debatable, I hold my hands out with a papal bull

The guilt’s inescapable, don’t get caught in it