Can't Have It - Vaibhav

Stop it if you wanna stop it

Need help but you can’t have it

Running out of cards, built a house of it

Got so many thoughts, need a room for it

Trying so hard to leave a legacy, ain’t meant to be

That memory, is something you can push as much as you want, it’s gonna fade

when you’re down six feet

Lost count how many times I’m losing sleep

Who cares I’m not losing myself no matter what my nightmares tell me

I don’t care what you think, yeah

Let me be a bad example

Still proud of myself for what I can handle

Made it this far, in it for my family

Wanna make em proud even if I end up with a needle in my arm

They say talking to yourself is rude, but what else can you do when nobody else

listens to you?

How can you expect people to love you when you can’t even say it in the mirror?

Life starts to get clearer when you see the blur in the lines, just see the big

picture

It’s either that or you’re just…

In the back seat, missing out on the chances you got, looking so mortal

I can be, having it all and I’d say, «I want more though»

Things we do, trying to find peace in chaos, ironic hole

Wish I could, never look back, guess that’s the cost of your goals

Trying, to get a glimpse of lost days

Begging, to feel the childhood innocence

Searching, for all the smiles I had then

Running away from the scars I have yet

Yeah that’s alright, did I want it though?

Adjusting and sacrificing ain’t the same thing

Be one with the crowd, but I wanted more

Rather be an outcast

Aim for the stars when you know dust ain’t your antidote

Rather be an outcast

Aim for the stars when you know dust ain’t where you feel home

(I'm no longer)

Trying to change the things about me, I can’t resolve

It rained upon me, guilt inside, I couldn’t absolve

I’d been so lost in random thoughts

I needed to stop, just took a shot, I’ve climbed the ladder, yeah

I’d love it and hate it

Trying to feel things by taking off bandages, how could I take it?

Hard to explain it

But that is what happens when you sell your soul cuz you cannot reshape it

In the back seat, missing out on the chances you got, looking so mortal

I can be, having it all and I’d say, I want more though

Things we do, trying to find peace in chaos, ironic hole

Wish I could, never look back, guess that’s the cost of your goals

Facts

I ain’t no saint

Got my own demons to deal with so don’t tell me about how I act

Testing my fate

Knocking all doors down to leave insecurities, yeah, it’s either that

Or a needle in vein

And regrets start drifting and drifting and drifting and drifting

And then I get wasted away, with my senses shifting and shifting and shifting

and shifting and shifting