The Yearning - The Illustrator

When I wake I am forsaken

In my mind astir with sickness

That pinpoints my every weakness

I try to fight it off, day after day

While my mind falls into deeper decay

I don’t know which way to turn

To stop this pain

I’ve changed my life for you

tore my mind in two

One side so sane it drives me crazy

While the other tears me down

I’ll deal with the constant yearn

For the feeling of normality that you want

While I get nothing in return

I am an arsonist and I vow

I’ll burn this fucking relationship

Down to the ground

I’ve never been more proud of myself

I can’t live with two lives in my mind

Take a look inside

I hope you like what you find

I’ve changed my life for you

tore my mind in two

One side so sane it drives me crazy

While the other tears me down

I’ll deal with the constant yearn

For the feeling of normality that you want

While I get nothing in return

And we will test the lesson that I’ve learned

I realize now that I’ve done everything wrong

Played the good guy for so god damn long

You now get to see what you’ve done

Now have a seat while I show you what the fuck I’ve become

What’s wrong sweetie?

I thought you would always love me

Whats wrong I’ve changed my life for you

tore my mind in two

One side so sane it drives me crazy

While the other tears me down

I’ll deal with the constant yearn

For the feeling of normality that you want

While I get nothing in return