Self Regard -

You were sold a dream for a price you couldn’t pay

Now you struggle each day

To save yourself from the pain

Now the poison runs through your veins

Sick inside

Put on a mask and hide behind your smile

Sit behind your wall and

Listen to my screams

From the other side

Trapped in my room of memories

I look for my escape

The end is not my fate

I refuse

I refuse

To let you choose for me

God damn my demons

They’ve been with me all along

Convincing me to let go when all I can do is hold on

Now all alone

The darkness consumes me

My silent screams grow louder as I look for them to bring me home

Sit behind your wall and

Listen to my screams

From the other side

Trapped in my room of memories

I look for my escape

The end is not my fate

I refuse

I refuse

To let you choose for me

No one ever told me that life

Would be so hard

So I keep fighting because

There has to be a reason I’ve been here so long

These scars show where I’ve been

Not who I am

And they remind me that if I keep living

I don’t have to see the end

I don’t have to see the end

I look for my escape

The end is not my fate

I refuse

I refuse

To let you choose for me