Fallout - Telethon

I didn’t live up to expectations

But I’m not really sure who set them

I’ll just hide behind an upturned sofa

And wait for all the fallout to disperse

If you didn’t know

Everyone surrounding you is scared

To tell you the ways you’re disappointing them

Allow me a new rendition of my prototypical self-defense

I was wrong

Aye, but here’s the rub

It was your fault

You are surprised, and aren’t we all?

I wish I could be around forever

Just to see if I could ever

Get eight full hours of sleep

Then and only then would I feel healthier

And ready to face this head on

Till then I’ll head off

Try to stop smiling

I’ll commission a new translation

And fill my heart with black

Can’t be so bright this time

Canned thunder and the eyes of a bobcat

Cover up a putrid tone of longing and solitude

I’ll watch surfers carving waves purely to spark the mood

I said I want you to leave if I’m starting to drain you

I said I want you to go if I’m pissing you off that much

We’re gonna have to forget all the things that offset you

The things that rip us apart into a thousand scattered fragments

Oh, fuck it

I wish I could be around forever

Just to see if I could ever

Get eight full hours of sleep

Then and only then would I feel healthier

And ready to face this head on

Till then I’ll head off

Try to start smiling

Why, why do I go back to where I know I’m not welcome anymore?

Why, why do I think things will work out when it’s rare they come close?

Witness the unfolding

Where optimism and pessimism fuse to become failure

A stark and unspoken of truth