Fearless - Sylvan

Calm down and take my time

I got to keep cool and then unwind

I got to stay sane and take a breath

I got to slow down and just relax

I try to persuade myself for real

I try to keep control of all my fears

I try to switch off and eventually turn aside

And I try but I know it’s a waste of my time

Run away run away

Need it — Do I — Try it — Will I — here

Want it — Can I — Got it

Rejoice like others do

I want to let go and be just like you

I want to hang around while I think of nothing else

I want to be sun and not the rain

I cannot just stop this masquerade

I cannot accept that it’s too late

I cannot lose my anxiety

But I try to find a place where I used to be me

I try to break out but I cannot succeed

I have to be strong but again I m too weak

My senses are frail — so defenseless within

But though I’m afraid I will never give in

Coalitions of viciousness fade away and take up

All my weird sensations — wish I could just wake up

From my known improvised life to make up

My mind inside — will I just capitulate and give up?

Insufficiently wise and I don’t know when I’ll grow up

Myself compromised and the cracks now show up

In my own crystallized side to blow up

To vaporize but I’ll never give up

Within our heads so deep inside, within our depths — that’s where they

hide And in our heads they’re buried deep;

and with these shades we

have to live