Sydney (After Everything) -

How many more days

Will I wake up crying

I walk through the seconds

And every moment

I doubt

If things will ever turn right

They tell me to live

With the wounds I’ve been leaving

I know I’m not perfect

But why is it I’m bleeding

Long after every one else

Has turned to scars

After everything is said and done

I’m left with nothing that I used to be

And with every rock-bottom I find

I’m still searching for me

Begging on bent knees

For a little forgiveness

I’m not one with the silence

Could never teach myself

To care less

And the truth is I’m tired

Of constantly crying

I want to be better

It’s not from lack of trying

More than anything, I

Just want to love me

Because when I think I’ve won

There’s always someone with something to grieve

After everything that I’ve lost

I still want to believe…

BRIDGE

That things change

And get better

That I’m broken

But I won’t let the darkness win

And I’m kind at the core

And one day I won’t hurt

Anyone, anymore…

I’ve gotta find myself

Before I lose myself

I’m off to find myself

With every scar I’ve left…

Coz it gets better,

No it gets better…

I know it gets better…

Because…

After everything is said and done

I’m left with nothing that I used to be

And with every rock-bottom I find

I’m still searching…

Because even when I’ve lost

And there are always people to grieve

At every rock-bottom I find

I’ll keep searching for me