Goodbye -

His clothes hang neatly in the closet

His books still on the shelf

He’ll need them, you see, 'cause he’s coming back

He swore he’d never leave me

I hold his son on my chest at night

While his pictures stare at me

I envision the love that he would have had

For this tiny, precious baby

Please don’t make me say goodbye

Please don’t make me say goodbye

Someone hold a gun to my head before I’ll say

Goodbye to this man that I love

I’ll be kicking and screaming 'til the end of my life

I won’t leave this man that I love

I cherish all of his possessions.

I savor what brought him joy

Yet at the same time I do everything

To deny what he meant to me

I’ve been eating to fill the void, I’ve been sleeping to fill the void,

I’ve been spending to fill the void, I’ve been fucking to fill the void

Anything to avoid, anything to avoid