I Don't Understand -

When I’m asleep

I leave the light on

And try to breathe

Relive the moment I was born

I feel the breeze

It feels electric

Then mockery

Another headache I reject

Suppose the feeling’s real

You’d never know

Suppose it’s what you feel

You’ll never know

That’s what I don’t understand

That’s what I don’t know

Now I’m awake

I leave the light on

And take a swim

Beneath the rocks and undertow

I try to scream

I don’t remember where I’ve been

A trampoline

Another lack of oxygen

Suppose the feeling’s real

You’d never know

Suppose it’s what you feel

You’ll never know

I open my mouth but there’s

Nothing to swallow down

I’m scratching my face like there’s

Something, farther down

It’s like a drug

I turn the light off

And pull the plug

But still it always comes back on

Suppose you change your mind

And back again

Suppose you had more time

And adrenaline