Speak to Me - Theory Hazit feat. K-drama & Jon Corbin, Jon Corbin, K-Drama

I feel like I’m wearing a blindfold

And I hear voices in my head that keep calling me

It’s cool cause I see better with my eyes closed

But this black cloud still follows me

I lost some family members this year, it’s been rough (rest in peace)

I have a difficult time looking up

I had my heart broken recently

Man, I just want God to speak to me

But all I get is «Ditch your life, blah blah blah, whoop dee woo»

From other folks that don’t know a ho ho from Susie Q

Ain’t nothing sweet at all though, it’s awful

I’m also deprived from community

Faith is at an all-time low

Feeling hella thirsty, tempted to holler at

Every single priest I come in contact with

Surfing on the porn sites whenever I get depressed

This is what it looks like when I escape from that

No accountability, abandoned by my own

Sowing of neglect and so I sit on the throne

Folded my arms, crossed my legs, tipped my crown, and stuck my chest out

Power tripped then I fell down

Lord, I can’t hear you

Alright, I’m listening

Lord, I’m listening

I got a lot of cares on my train of thought

That travel full speed through my head, I feel distraught

At times, it’s hard to stay on track

Cause I don’t wanna misrepresent this cross I’m carrying on my back

But I don’t even feel like the Lord is hearing me

Am I talking to myself?

That’s how it appears to be

Feeling the heaviness when I pray, is His ear near to me?

I don’t see any so what is near and dear to me?

I’m aware that doesn’t mean He doesn’t care

Just tired of feeling like my prayers don’t make it through the air

Speak Lord, I need your comfort and direction

Speak Lord, I don’t wanna feel neglected

Speak Lord, I need more than my knees floored

My spirit’s soundtrack: melancholy keyboards

Guitar strings emanate from the church

I’m kneeling at the altar asking what my life is worth

Cause if I had worth, wouldn’t my dad love me?

I’m living in submission to my father’s curse above me

An empty vacuum sucking up my joy

Invisible tattoos marking this bruised boy

Story after story, Scripture after Scripture

Page after page is painting this clear picture

That God is a mighty wind, Spirit moves swiftly

So tell me Lord, why haven’t You yet hit me?

Self-doubt, deprecate, self-criticize

Self-loathing, all for self, never knowing why

We equate our broken fathers with the Most High

I just wanna know how You see me in Your eyes, Lord