Not Alone - Shane Kidd, Lucius

Pressure makes diamonds or you can die man

Need some groundwork I’m pursuing high plans

But got the chaos and the mayhem

Got me up writing early in the am

It’s my therapy I spill and write

As I wrestle with my will to fight

I feel alone as I’m hoping for change

The thrill is gone cause I’m broken from pain

Too Late to win but I’m on time to lose

Too precious so no time to lose

But I’m lost and need clear direction

And courage to not fear rejection

No weak links but gotta break chains

Lord strengthen me so please take reign

Fear’s got me trapped, heart’s feeling colder

Life’s wasted, I need to get sober

Can someone talk to me

I don’t hear a sound

Can someone walk with me

I need someone around

Can someone hear me?

Don’t know which way to go

Feeling lost on my own

No more pain, just let me know

I’m not alone

I’m Going thru the motion fighting these emotions

My heart’s so divided, I’m looking for the quotation

Love is a chore, I abhor it, it’s a bore

Tired of these feelings I really can’t ignore

Got me twisted but trying not to sweat it

To say I’m good is lying and pathetic

I’m on a quest, I’m asking questions

Reflecting back on past depression

Why failure?

Why did I hurt her

Why heartbreak?

We both full of fervor

Feverish feelings flirting with these female

Lust has me sick, I just wanna lead well

Need to be healthy, somebody help me

Nights of no sleep seem to overwhelm me

Makes wanna cringe my heart wants to binge

But the real question will I love again?

Can someone talk to me

I don’t hear a sound

Can someone walk with me

I need someone around

Can someone hear me?

Don’t know which way to go

Feeling lost on my own

No more pain, just let me know

I’m not alone

Restless, wrestling for stability

Looking for a chance or even possibility

To find hope, to find love, to find peace

Wonder will these dark nights ever cease

On the narrow path has my feet aching

Have my failures left me forsaken?

Does God hear the sound of my prayers

Do my words just bounce in the air

I can’t handle the darkness I feel

Take the wheel, let me walk in your will

Had control but just an illusion

Save my soul, Lord push through confusion

Give me faith with no reason to doubt

My Life is odd please even it out

I’m worked up not to be worthless

Adonai make my life full of purpose

Oh Lord I’m lost find me

My Lord, you’re my refuge

So hide me