Callous - SASAMI

I lost my calluses for you

And you didn’t even think to ask me how my day was

Now I’m leaving

I couldn’t even count the number of times

That I let you in and I made myself small

Even though I smile throughout it all

When I look back

I can see myself slipping down

Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried

Heaven knows I tried tonight

I know it’s not your fault

You were born with a spoon in your throat

And a gun in your hand and a plan for yourself

I’m not grieving

It’s just a matter of time and a matter of what

And you’ve known since birth what you like

And I’m happy for you until my face is blue

When I look back

I can see myself so clear

When I look back

I can see myself slipping down

Tonight will be the night

Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried

Tonight will be the night

Heaven knows I tried tonight

Tonight will be the night

Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried

Tonight will be the night

Heaven knows I tried tonight

Tonight will be the night

Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried

Tonight will be the night

Heaven knows I tried tonight