The Write - Sage Francis

This is to the woman who I loved but lost

Intertwined souls of the universe got divorced

But it wasn’t forced.

got single thoughts of being double crossed

Still there’s no love lost

Now I can’t even start this.

I see no light inside the darkness

So whatcha want, miss?

don’t check my pulse because i’m heartless

You were my life support.

And in a sense my defense fights the thought

I’ll try to keep this one nice and short

Our four chambers beat in unison

I’m wanting you to listen to the dead silence in my defiance

I used to sin and be intrigued by violence

Now as I glimpse into the past I thank God for your guidance

Alas, I give my eyes a rinse

Blink and think in retrospect… realize you need to get your respect

I apologize as I holler cries

Cause it’s you and not these college guys that keeps my knowledge wise

You’re my crutch.

but now I fall cause you’re someone i can’t touch

Now no one wants to help me up and that’s too much

Even my wisdom fell.

i’m in a living hell

Throw my inner child back in the prison cell

Incarcerated hatred is causing conflict

With the free love sentencing death to the convict

My soul is on skid row, where can this kid go?

I’m homeless, how could you notice when this whole world didn’t know?

It’s time i make public just how personal we got in private moments

Because lies are our opponents

Forget material or superficial stuff

I either let you know too much or not enough

This is to the woman who i loved but lost

Intertwined souls of the universe got divorced

But it wasn’t forced.

got single thoughts

Of being double crossed, still there’s no love lost.

There’s no love lost

I can’t pretend this.

The impact on my life has been tremendous

It can’t be fixed with a friendly kiss

What’s endless?

Questions, pain, grief and misbelief?

I’m so faithful all I grind is my teeth

But what I find beneath the surface has changed from priceless to worthless

This three ring circus of clowning around is what hurts us

My brain short circuits as my mind starts to wander

To discover another lover.

I’m isolated, living somber

She’s whispering «come hither from there yonder.»

I don’t think i wanna.

The pressure ain’t gettin' lesser

Open my dresser… it overflows with memorabilia

Momentos of our success now symbolize my failure

I took time to write you diaries when we couldn’t speak much

According to you that was a weak touch

Cause «actions speak louder than words.»

Turn up your hearing aid

You made this man afraid.

Put the pin back in the hand grenade

There’s not much time left til I’m left with nothing but a broken promise

While every syllable I said was spoken honest

We expected each other to be a physic mind reader

Don’t tell me «life goes on.»

I need her…

Next to me…

So once again I can feel the high of ecstasy…

We tripped… walking down the aisle of destiny

Respectful sexually, because see… I understood

And I don’t know too many people who would

Have done anything to get a laugh from their better half

I should have sensed it sooner… when you lost your sense of humor

Now let my soul speak, I couldn’t eat for a whole week

With no sleep.

The price I pay for being a control freak

Now I’m screaming inside my pillow instead of dreaming

I must have said «I love you» so much that it lost it’s meaning

But no one’s perfect, so where’s my chance to make adjustments?

It’s worth it… if our romance had substance

Because with purity we conceived marriage

Til insecurity caused a miscarriage

This is to the woman who i loved but lost

Intertwined souls of the universe got divorced

But it wasn’t forced.

got single thoughts of being double crossed…

I was in it for the long run

Now who’s the weak and the strong one?

I tried to be Mr. Right, though things were wrongly done

But ummmm… When it was time for sacrifice

Straight up, you didn’t have to ask me twice

I put off this rap device

I wasn’t ACTING nice, all my feelings they were genuine

You got me open and I let you in

But now you’re screaming bloody murder.

Used the entrance as the exit

Now you’re absent like my mind, i’m on a head trip

You never said shit.

Used then misused the entrance

And never let me get in one sentence

Forget friends… you were my best one

Now I’m depressed, son.

It didn’t take long for the stress to come

Memories be my arch nemesis

As i sit and reminisce, wondering if you remember this:

Our genesis.

First experiences on old dates

Got cold shakes and tingles, never single, we were soulmates

That term used to hold weight but now it’s temporary

And lately I’ve been making trips to the cemetery

Ain’t nothing evil in death, but this feels devilish

I’d never wish this on my worst enemy

Remember me